shit son. look what you done.

i am only in love with myself, no one else.

i got out of that hell hole in marlton.

bitches are terrible to live with, i learned my lesson.

dont be mad that you got preg and didnt know who the daddy was.

i didnt tell you to spread your legs.

i didnt tell you not to wear a condom.

it aint ma fault, yo.

i could have called immigration.

any other person in my shoes would have.

im too nice for my own good.

twilight came out.

im obsessed.

at least im just not watching the movie.

i began reading the third book again.

280 pages in two days is impressive.

ive done better, but oh well.

we got lives to lead down here in buena vista campground.

campground life is the shit, by the way.

i truly adore being far away from everyone, for the most part.

and it helps that my dad is an amazing guy.

wouldnt trade him for the world.

i went out drinking last night for the first time in a month.

however, in that month, i saved 500 dollars.

plus my tax refund.

i dunno, ive got 1097 saved.

and im buying/financing a 2000 vw beetle.

because hello, theyre awesome.

and ive wanted one ever since that whole punch buggy no punchback thing circulated.

incubus is coming this summer.

august 8th at festival pier.

ironic.

august 7th two years ago i saw them perform at festival pier with steve.

august 8th two years ago i saw them perform at festival pier also.

then went home and took a pregnancy test.

now theyre coming back, same date, two years later.

and im back to dating steve.

its just ironic, thats all im saying.

things like that get to me.

speaking of steve, i dont see him nearly enough.

and any 21 year old attractive female in my shoes would probably say

"fuck this."

but im not saying fuck this.

there is a reason for having that man in my life.

and i love having him in my life.

even if i dont see him for weeks at a time.

i am comfortable with him.

i am happy with him.

hes truly wonderful.

im going to save money for two tickets to california for steves bday.

that automatically makes me the best gf ever, ya dig?

the sister thing bothers me. sometimes.

only when i think about it.

but i know what i was like at 18.

times that by two.

ill sit and wait, no big.

fate it seems.