ill shake responsibility & say a hard life did this to me.

self pity is meaningless.

full time job possibility at the hospital soon.

MEANING.

BENEFITS, no more charity care.

no more expensive prescriptions.

TUITION ASSISTANCE, 2000 dollars a semester.

and a guaranteed job within the virtua system once i graduate.

PAID TIME OFF, 8 hours per pay period.

FULL TIME HOURS, guaranteed 40 hours a week.

MEANING, if this follows through, a light on the horizon.

and things start falling into place.

and maybe i can breathe a little easier.

i spent this past weekend with ben.

im spending next weekend with stephen.

decision-making? im boycotting it.

like i said, sticking to my decision of being single until summerishhhh.

and getting riproaring drunk on valentines day.

if it happens then it happens and thats all!

im considering visiting california for three or four days.

i have to look into financial situations.

because im also looking at cars and such.

hmmmmmm.

itll all work out in the end i guess.

im just wishing the end would get here quick so i could be happy with EVERYTHING for once.

winter sucks.

i think i have seasonal depression.

plus i lost 100 bucks instead of 50 in ac.

BUT had an amazing time. hahahahaaha home away from home, i love it.

byebyebyebyebye.