dissection.

some things will always intrigue me. emotion vs. logic is one of them. how do we get along on so many levels, but when it comes down to the core, its always emotion vs. logic? maybe im too emotional. maybe youre too logical. maybe we just like to debate things for hours. maybe we were put across from each other, to dissect one another. to realize our own faults. our strengths. i dont get it man, its puzzling. but its good. youre a great friend.

pee - essss: im a compulsive liar apparently. and youre not cradle robbing, youre just being a damn idiot, thats all. this takes me back to when we first met, and you'd tell me your girl problems. putting myself back into that era and that frame of mind, i know exactly what i'd say to you, as a friend.

"nope, not gonna work out. ever. dont waste the time or energy."

but no, we're not friends. so i have nothing to say anymore. sometimes, i hear about the things you do, and late at night, i wish we had some friendship still. so i could call you and say how are you doing, how is this and that and blablabla. there'd be no notion of anything more than a friendship, because i wouldnt be interested, because i was not interested for a very long time.

and i always said, do not leave me with that feeling that he left me with. do not abandon me. promise me we cant make a friendship work. but some friendships are not worth saving i guess. i thought we had it in us, but now i know we don't. hell, i do not even know you anymore. im talking to walls here. and i know that. and im okay by it.

im just mad at you, thats all. you made me fall for you, you broke my heart, threw out my stuff, and now youre dating someone who i never pictured you with. im not a "hata". im not jealous. im just evaluating things. and its annoying the shit out of me. because you are not who i thought you were. and isn't that always the worst possible thing to happen?